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Holy ****…I was so afraid to get on the scale this morning.  I just knew it wouldn’t move.  I knew I followed my points and I’ve been exercising to, but you know how things are.  OH MY GOSH!!!!!  It went down.  Yeah Me!!!  I remember that feeling of accomplishment, the feeling of wanting it to be next Thursday so i can see if it goes down even more. 

I know I have a long road ahead of me, but tday wa a good start. 

Off to the Gym!

So, here we go.  i have been overweight/obese all my life.  I apperantly got my mothers gene’s and not my father’s.  In September of 2006 I watched the Biggest Loser season opener ( BTW best show ever) and had a total meltdown. I was 230 lbs and a heavy smoker.  I sat on the couch just balling, crying about ” i know how they feel, it sucks to be overweight.  Blah..Blah..Blah). 

After the show, my husband suggested we go for a walk to get me motivated to do something about my weight.  little did I know his plan was to kill me and run of with the neighbor…no seriously, I thought we would take a little walk with the dog down to the end of the street and back.  2 Hours later we had walked 3 miles.  I hit him and screamed that he was tring to kill me.  Of course i headed straight to the back porch to smoke when we got back.  That night it hit me…i’m sitting here smoking a cigarette, gasping for air from the walk, and crying that I’m to fat.  HELLLLLOOOOOO.  So the next day the journey began.  I joined weight watchers, quit smoking and began walking.  The weight started flying off. 

I reached my goal weight (152) in November of 2007 ( my birhtday actually).  I kept going to meetings until i made lifetime and then i got the old ” i don’t need the meetings, I know what i am doing” attitude.  I put a few pounds back on immediately, but hung around 155-157 till May 2008.  That’s when the snowball hit.

I started a new job, stopped working out ( excuses, excuses) and the weight came back.  I weighed myself New Year’s eve and was shocked to say 190 on the scale.  i hadn’t realized it had gotten that bad.  Off course my friends always say that i’m still looking great.  Pleeeaase.  My very good friend at work told me that she was gonna start weight watchers again on New Years day.  I took me one extra day.

So…my Journey begins again.  i want to get this weight back off and keep it off this time.   Mostly, I want to feel healthy again.